Life

Wow

Fri, 24 Jul 2009 05:28:41 GMT

I havent been on livejournal in like 4 months. I basically got really into Twitter and its a lot handier cause Ive been busy. It seems like all my posts are basically the "Im still alive" ones. Idk if I even have any friends anymore, if you cut me I understand. And if you cut me, you wont be reading this so whatevs. Hows everyones summer going? Mines pretty crappy. Ive decided I want to go to hair school I think so Im trying to figure that out. Started seeing a therapist, IDK if thats helping. Takin it one day at a time I guess. Whats new with all you guys?

im not dead if anyone was wondering....

Thu, 21 May 2009 05:51:09 GMT

Ive been super MIa from LJ. My bad. I got like a $800 ticket today, no good. Ive realized Im falling into a deeper depression. Living at my moms, just working for her. I never hang out with my friends and I dont do shit anymore. I always want to enjoy life but I have no idea how nor do I have any money for it. They say money cant buy happiness. HA. Whats new in everyone else's world?

PS sorry my posts are always lame :/

People who have twitters...

Wed, 15 Apr 2009 00:08:38 GMT

I am detrmined to use this fucker so give me your twitter names if you like me? And man Im gunna feel crappy if no one says anything to this. Whatevs. Dont worry be happy.

Happy Birthday!

Sat, 11 Apr 2009 03:39:47 GMT

Happy Birthday insunshine Hope its an awesome day!

New Emily Move Trailor!!! and also Th Wonder Years

Thu, 26 Mar 2009 06:33:22 GMT

Omg.

Cannot wait. I love movies in the 60's/70's when shit was all peace and love and sex drugs and rock'n'roll. Dazed and Confused is def in my top 10 favorite movies. And Emile Hirsch is in it and you cant go wrong with that kid. HE is the sex for reals.

Also, honestly every fucking show ever is pretty much out on DVD except The Wonder Years. That makes me so sad. Ive heard its because they cant get the music rights or something? Anyone know anything about that shiznat? I need me some Wonder Years asap.

How does one tell their BFF/Roomate...

Tue, 24 Mar 2009 05:55:13 GMT

That living with them and their boyfriend is making their life miserable and theyre doing evrything in their power to move the fuck out?
Going to my first court date tomorrow for my Bankruptcy. Hopefully all goes smoothly and no bull shit. Dont have to go to work though, get to hang with mi Madre, we'll see how that goes.

Also, does anyone have a life list? Cause I think I need to make one.

Patrick Love

Sat, 21 Mar 2009 04:47:19 GMT

So I posted this in someones comments a few minutes ago and I figured Id post it here just cause its such a cute video of Patrick and it cant not make someones smile. Its friday and im at home cause I work tomorrow. Blah.... Oh well, at least I have the internet to entertain me, right?....

random update, more like a list

Wed, 18 Mar 2009 03:44:16 GMT

-Ive been picking at the same zit on my chin and it literally hurts and I cannot stop and its scarring super bad.
-Ive manage to get a cold sore frombeing so stressed out, or its herpes. whatevs.
-I want to move back home so bad its unnatural
-I havent been so unhappy with my life in a long time
-I work and then come home and sit. fuck that
-My work chedule is M-Th and Sat 8-4:30. WTF. not even 2 days off in a row, not gunna work.
-I saw a picture of Zac Efron with a topless chick for a magazine shoot and it made me blush.
-I like Demi Lovatos new song.
-I hate overdraft fees, gain. 2 fucking dollars.
And last but not least my phone got shut off for non payment. I called yesterday to find out when it was getting shut off cause I couldnt pay it til the 20th and shes like "uhhhh idk, just wait and see" and of course the next day its off.
I want to spoon with my family for the rest of my life and Im eating my feelings. Sweet.

Happy Birthday

Sun, 15 Mar 2009 20:43:29 GMT

happy birthdqay yesterday kittygrenade and Happy Birthday lordgroovius

Hope your days are awesome!

Seriously, God hates me

Mon, 02 Mar 2009 04:30:25 GMT

Jesus christ. Somehow my bank account was completley inaccurate and in turn I am negative $167. When my paycheck goes in that will leave me with like 400 dollars. My rent is 366 and I have two pay day loans that are out. And Ive been waiting for my tax return and now Im pretty sure Im an idiot and didnt sign it. AND my check engine light just came on in my car, so on top of needing a new headlight, blinker and oil change new brakes and new tires, theres something else. I am so done with life. When the fuck is it supposed to get good? Cause so far, Ive got nothing.

I dont enjoy that it takes celebrities to bring awareness to things

Sat, 21 Feb 2009 08:36:41 GMT

So dont get me wrong i totally feel bad for rhianna. But i feel like it takes a high profile case for so many people to realize the shit that happens in this world. I could almost gauruntee a good chunk of people that are saying fuck chris brown know of a similiar situation but have said nothing about or asaociate with someone that has or does physically or mentally abuse a significant other.

The other one is that reality star jade goody. Again dont get me wrong my hearr goes out to her and her loved ones. But i was just reading about how the guy shes marrying got special priviledge from parole to spend their wedding night together and some designer sent her a 4000 dollar wedding dress even though shes made plenty of money.

I just feel like even when if comes to famous people and things that happen to normal people every day the media makes tons of money reporting about what happemed in their specific situation and people just eat it up. And that wedding dress money could have provided someone some well needed health care or donated to a charity or research fund.
People are abused and diagnosed with cancer everyday but its not on the cover of every magazine and vera wang isnt the first one to jump at offering some financial backing.

Idk just my thoughts and opinions

Apple/Ipod discounts

Fri, 20 Feb 2009 07:45:08 GMT

So, hello LJ, Ive been MIA. Working 40 hours a week fucking kills me. Im sick as a dog, but cant miss anymore work. Im done withtraining tomorrow, and Im already on my 2nd write up for being late/sick/or having to leav early. Whoops :/ Anywho I forgot to tell you guys I get hella discounts from Apple. According to the last updated info I can get like 100-150 bucks off ipods (the bigger ones) the samller the gigs, the less money I save I guess. But I also get a discount through apple. havent really scoped it out much. And dell and panasonic and sony. I get discounts at Arbys for fucks sake. Anywho, just letting you guys know, I dnt plan on buying an Ipod or anything soon, IDK if there is a limit to how many I can buy, but if anyone is thinking about buying one Im more than happy to help you out. Youd probably have to pay fori t to be shipped to me and then Id have to ship it to you. And perhaps a small fee of $10 or 20 bucks :). Idk, just lettin the homies know. Miss you guys!

Australia...

Thu, 12 Feb 2009 04:13:28 GMT

Man. I stayed home from work today cause I had an emotional breakdown last night. So I decided to read up on the brush fires in in Australia. God, my heart goes out to all of them. I ended up looking at all the victims so far. These 2 sisters, 21 and 22 died trying to save their horses. That really got to me for some reason. They say over a million animals have died. And what they once thought was one body theyre now saying there are some that were actually 2 bodies, couples probably embracing eachother and they literally melted into "one". And the famous Koala is just so heartbreaking. When he grabbed that guys hand, I just started bawling.

Althought its a bad time, Ive always wanted to go to Australia, and today I decided Im going to. Obviously it wont be forever considering I cant live off my paychecks because I have so much back rent and owe people money. But once I get that taken care of Im saving up. Because of my little attack yesterday I once again reminded myself that there is so much out there in the world to see and people to meet. None of it will get done if I just sit here all day. And before I know it, i'm going to be older and (hopefully) with a family and it just wouldnt work out. So, thats my latest goal.

Nothin much else is new. Just working and being lame. Same old same old. I hope all of you are doing well and embracing life and livin it up....

Fucking paid account ran out

Wed, 11 Feb 2009 06:38:45 GMT

wtf. I didnt even realize its been that long. And I forgot how shitty it is to have a free account. And I havent even looked at my icons to see which ones I lost :(
Ive been working way too much and I hate it. I cried to my mother for like an hour today. And it snowed AGAIN. Its fucking February. Fuck me running.

Is this ass real?

Fri, 06 Feb 2009 06:42:21 GMT

Ok, this is random, but I managed to find myself on this video. I was looking for that ghetto little white girl saying some shit so if you have it lemme know. But anyways, please watch this. Idk if this is physically possible...

I love that Pete Wentz...

Wed, 28 Jan 2009 07:46:04 GMT

loves Friay Night Lights. That is like my ultimate favorite show. Football and high school in Texas. In case you didnt know, Ive always had thsi sick obsession with living in Texas, especially a big high school football town. Its weir,dI know. Just another one of those obsessions I get :/

This morning it randomly snowed like an inch. It was like 6 am so I headed towork early. And holy fuck I almost crashed like 3 times I kid you not. Going 40 to like 3 mph down a hill with bald tires in a matter of 10 seconds, doesnt work. I was shitting my pants. And then I watched a utility truck right in front of me fishtail on some black ice and then I did the exact same thing. Saw 3 accidents cause some people think theyre invincible.

Work is work. Its long, but the last 2 days have actually gone by relatively fast. Its basically like being back at school again. Ive finally talked to people and Im on a first name basis with quite a few which is always nice. Theres actually a guy I kinda think is cute and today he was totally flirting with me VIA Nextel Direct Connect (Im doing customer service for Aprint/Nextel and we got to test out some of the features today). An he kept bleepin me and sayin shit, some was funny, then it got weird and awkward so I shut it off :/

I love that all my shows are back on. Scrubs is by far the funniest show EVER. And The Office, that too is the funniest show ever. And LOST. Which I lov3e, but Im not gunny lie, I think its coming down to the end cause shit is just getting WAY to unrealistic... as if a whole bunch of people crashing on some weird island an surviving is?! Haha, whatevs. Still broke, but Next Friday I will get my very first paycheck. Im stoked cause I earned it myself. However with rent and the money I owe to people its all pretty much spent. Oh well. Ill get ahead at some point? I hope??!!

Tis all homies.

The best investment EVER. And I start my job tomorrow!

Mon, 19 Jan 2009 07:54:37 GMT

Ok, so if you havent heard of MagicJAck, you will soon. My Step Dad discovered it like a year ago and then for xmas all the kids got one. Anywho, you just need the internet and a phone and youve got a crystal clear phone line. You get your own number and you can literally call fucking China. My Step dad brought it to Mexico and used it down there and didnt have to pay ridiculous fees. Plus your first year is free and you pay $20 a year. The dude who made it has got to be sittin pretty right about now.

In other news I have to be up in t minus 6 hours to start my new job. Barf. Im not excited, but at least Ill finally be making my own money and I wont have to borrow it from my Mom who doesnt have it to give really.

My goal for this week is to finally finish my bankruptcy shit and just get it in the mail. So wish me luck on that. Nothin much else. Had to hang out with the love of my life all weekend with his annoying stupid girlfriend.

Do you guys ever think that theres always going to be that one person you will never stop having feelings for, even if youre not with them. Like you will think about them every day for the rest of your life even if youre with someone else. Idk. I hate dudes so fucking much.

Anywho, wish me luck.

Everyone else is talking about the new tour

Thu, 15 Jan 2009 23:17:34 GMT

I am in quite the pickle here. Ive never seen FOB in concert. The last time they were in town I had no money and then they announced another tour, but came no where near Seattle. I snuch into the venue for All Time Low and The Maine and all that, but got kicked out cause I was so fucking drunk :/ Id like to see Cobra. Metrostation and Key Monday I can do without (and it seems like everyone else can too) When I get my first paycheck, and hopefully have some extra money. And if they havent sold out. Which they probably will cause its FOB in a smaller venue. Ill buy a ticket. It'll be interesting to see how much people try to sell these tickets for on ebay and Craigslist and all that.

So who's gunna go? Who'd rather shoot themselves in the vagina?

Omg, Zack from ATL is hangin with My new BFF

Tue, 13 Jan 2009 01:18:13 GMT

This is super awkward. They seem like a random couple. And they also seem like she's wasted and theyre abnout to bone, hella. And she acts EXACTLY like Paris Hilton when she talks to people and the Pap's. So Zach doing a Hilton clone. Awesome. Maybe they met on an MTV dating show?

I got a JOB!!!! and a Twitter...how the fuck do I use it? And other random shit...

Mon, 12 Jan 2009 12:08:23 GMT

Yes people it only took me 7 months but I finally found a job. Doing customer service for Sprint/Nextel. So I get to talk to angry people pissed off about their phones all day. I give myself a week before I tell someone to get fucked and hang up on them... But 9.50 an hour, the first 7 weeks is training and its M-F 7:30 am to 4 pm. Its a lot of fucking training, Im kind of scared, but itll be nice to have the weekends off for awhile.... so yay me.
I finally jumped on the Twitter bandwagon. Idk how it works really. Do I update it from my phone or my computer or both? My UN is SarahBrowne, so if I added you thats an FYI.
I hate in that Lady Gaga song she says "gotta do do", like wtf you have to poop? (im 12)
I saw some pictures of myself a few days ago. I look like the worlds biggest cow about to give birth to the worlds biggest calf. Isnt it lame how you can take pictures of yourself and only pick the ones that are flattering and in turn convince yourself you look ood. But then you see candid ones from other ppls cameras and you look like hell and cant believe you actually look that way.... yeah, sucks. So that day I went for a walk. Almost died at the end cause it was up hill. But I made it somehow. Now 2 days later my shins are killing me. Id really like to get into working out again. Literally just right afterwards I was in such a good mood for awhile. It really does help your mood and only in a good way.
Its 4 am and Im watching an infomercial.... sweet. I dont think I have anything else important to say. Like the above was important?
Im off to figure out this Twitter shit.....

My state is drowning, for serious

Thu, 08 Jan 2009 06:19:09 GMT

Holy Fuck. Washington State is going under. Seriously every western washington county is under severe flood watch. Theres like 4 different town that have been evacuated and the rivers are going to be WELL above the official "flood" line. This is worse than last year. Seriously, first we get 2 feet of snow and now we're getting like 2 feet of rain. Fuck My Life. Brb, going to find my boat.

I think everyone hated 2008

Sat, 03 Jan 2009 09:48:40 GMT

So Ive been at my sisters for the last like million years. The last week or so her internet got shut off so Ive been MIA. Ive also been sick. I wasnt gunna go out for New Years, but my sister convinced me to go to our friends just right down the street. I ended up passing out in someones lawn and then someone got me home and I peed all over my sisters couch. Idk how I even got that fucked up, but whatever. Its over. Anywho, I think Sunday Im going home. Monday I have a job interview/something. Starting off the new year with no money an overdranw bank account and no idea how Im paying my rent that was due on the 1st isnt the best way to start it, but whatever. I need to get the fuck out of this depression. Idk if I should go back to my physciatrist. Ive been taking my anti depressants for like a year and a half and I still hate my life and everything about it. Im starting to think Im bipolar and/or manic depressive. My new years resolution is to get my shit together and to possibly enjoy my life for once. Id really like to start working out again. Of course i wanna lose weight, but I remember when I used to work out all the time it just made me feel better. So wish me luck I guess. I hope everyone else had a good new years

2008 wasnt great. 2009 will be prime.... I made that up myself!

Twilight has sucked me in and I need some boy advice...

Tue, 23 Dec 2008 03:30:45 GMT

Ok, so yeah I started reading Twilight. Got to like page 250. I was bored of reading though so I watched the movie online. OMg, I love Robert Pattinson. He is so gorgeous! And Ive always loved Kristen Stewart since In The Land of Women. When I was reading, because Ive seen the previews, I could only picture them so it was hard to have my own imagination. But yeah I live in Washington so Im dirving to Forks and finding a Vampire to Marry. Preferably RPats himself. Im such a loser.

As for the boy stuff... here goes. So my friend kept bugging me to talk to his friend on MySpace and just check him out and stuff. I did. Hes my type body wise. He plays the drums and is really into music. Hes really shy and hes never been in a long term relationship (like me). Anywho, once all this 8 million feet of snow melts, we're supposed to hang out. Hes seen my pictures and stuff, but those things can be decieving. and idk, Im just being a pussy. He doesnt seem like the type of guy that would be an asshole the second he saw me and wasnt attracted to me. But I just dont do a lot of this dating shit really. Im more of a go to a bar get drunk and possibly sleep with someone I shouldnt. Ive never really been ina relationship. I think part of it is because Ive spent a good 5 years being madly in love with the love of my life. Hes like my best friend and we always had something, but it never went any further. Now he has some stupid GF who no one likes but hes homeless so hes been staying with her. Im nice to her but I seriously want to kick her in the face. Anywho, not the point. Idk, Im just so self concious and Id rather meet someone and then start talking as opposed to talking then meet and then never hear from them cause that would be a total blow to my self esteem. Im just being a pussy really. I want to meet him. I want to get laid! But appatrently youre not supposed to do that on a first date. Im just rambling. Sorry....

I dont know how you people do it.

Fri, 19 Dec 2008 06:29:08 GMT

Yeah so we got 6 inches of snow this morning and Seattle and surrounding areas have turned into hell. We're having like 24/7 storm watch news and tons and tons of streets are closed cause its just been a viscious cycle. Like 3 days ago it snowed probably like 3 inches. And then at night it'd be in the teens so it would all freeze and roads got shitty. Finally yesterday things were clearing up, but OH NO. more snow. And its all starting all over again. And they say Sunday its supposed to snow again with freezing rain and 40 mph winds. And possibly Thursday next week. We're not used to it at all, so basically 75% of businesses and offices and all that shut down. Theres a car accident or an abandon car like every 20 feet, no joke.Its just a shit show. So in turn I would like to tip my hat to the people who deal with it on a more regular basis.
We went out once in my car. A 2000 Jetta and its a stick. It was quite the adventure I must say.
And I missed The Office. Impissed. Thank god for the internet.

ok, it was David Cook I think

Thu, 18 Dec 2008 18:53:26 GMT

Isnt that an American Idol guy? I was thinking about it last night cause thats the type of shit I think about when Im lying in bed.
It has snowed like 5 inches in the last 5 hours. Im stuck at my sisters. The news said the Metro Seattle area might get 1-3 inches and it fucking shit on us. Im done listening to the news cause for the most part theyve been REALLY wrong. Bastards.